convu-"f**king"-luted

bite me.

everything around me is falling apart. or crumbling. whichever way you look at it, it isn't a happy sight. to top it off, i am falling apart in the seams as well, and it is causing the stress levels to go to stratospheric heights. so yeah there are far pressing problems in the general vicinity of the universe today, but who gives a flying f*ck anyway? we deal with what we got and bend over eventually (we don't necessarily like it) then take it up the tail pipe.

the world is indeed screwed and the good people finish last. the likeable harmless young man gets to be the freaking sponge but never gets the woman. oh yes dearie you are a nice friend, and it is great that you stay constant and are always there when i need you, but hell, you are too boring to consider spending a lifetime with, much less sleep with. (he might be there because he yearns for you too, and if you cannot love him, at least have the decency to treat him with just a speck of consideration)

by the freaking way, don't you happen to be well-off too? so why don't you be a complete a-hole and solve my problems while i sit and wait for the next neanderthal to swipe me off my feet then break my heart?!!! the guy maybe nice and maybe genuinely nice, please don't turn him into a hateful mofo. the one, the breaker, the one true and fiercest love, it happens once in a lifetime, after that you find someone and love again, but it will always be "ok i can live with this", and will always pale in comparison. so please.

i just want to scream. bite me.